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I've been a bad writer, always have been. Actually I've never wrote a proper letter or anything that resembles writing something to someone, well—maybe once but it was full of regrets and unwanted emotions. I write this letter to my self, something in me made me want to write about the word "Love" for me it has been just a word so far, a word that expresses my great gratitude to my friends and family.A gratitude? Should I really say that as a gratitude? I fear it's just hard for me to express it with a mild confusion mixed with it if it's romantic or platonic when someone does say it to me, that word so we call "Love" really have been just a normal thing for me to say this days. And its really hard to differentiate it sometimes if its real or not. By means if it's the love, love or THE love, love. I've always wanted to feel it like the love you feel romantically, funny when I label myself as an aroace person. I wanna express it to someone genuinely, write letters, give them words they never heard before, make them feel something, and just everything that resembles the "love" word. Anon-