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I'm such a loser. There's nothing for me and it feels so overwhelming. I have trouble sleeping and feel so behind. I'm lazy, dreadful and addicted to beating my meat because I have no vestige of intimacy left. I cry. Cry tears of quiet desperation. Everything feels so heavy, that I'm treading through life, hoping something would alleviate whatever this I'm feeling. But there never is. Only a grim reminders that this is it. I have the profound desire to die. I wish i could. But I'm afraid. I'm a coward.