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So I'm Christian and ever since I'm a kid they call me asexual because I never liked anyone and till at nowni still think that. But the problem is I'm confused because I have a classmate she's a girl and I want to see her everyday and like be close with her as I can. And I'm lost because I know it's a sin and I don't want my friends and family to be disappointed at me if they found out I'm gay