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I know a lot of people on here speak about relationships and stuff. And ive been in one for almost 2 years now. And dont get me wrong all relationships have their ups and downs. But I find myself wondering what things would be like if I just said no? I dont always think I truly....care? At all, I mean I love them I wouldnt want to leave them so this is just a feeling, but ive noticed I dont necessarily feel, much. If anything I find myself avoiding everything all together, and my partner was saying how it feels like I treat them like a friend or someone I barely know, which..idk if I could fully believe that, but I understand it. If that makes sense, Ive never been an affectionate person, from. -⚡a very young age because I have been assulted and groomed before and I feel like me having these past issues are affecting my present life especially in relationships. And this is my first post so im really nervous 😓