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I *had* a boyfriend. Our relationship started as fun, happy, and just full of whimsical things. As I get older and matured, I realized that my love for him was slowly dying out. I knew that he wasn't for me. I started talking to my friend first about it. I have complained to them that I genuinely wanted to break up with him because of how he acts. (He is kind of immature for me). Now, this is why I genuine felt like a piece of shit. I ended up saying bad things about him, like talking behind his back without him know and while I was still IN the relationship but I know that he treats me like shit and only looks at my body, not for love. It's like he always lovebombs me to make me feel like I need to stay in the relationship so it wouldn't hurt him. I was such a fool. I need some tips. I told my self that I've already moved on, like how I told my friend how I dislike him, but seeing him with another girl kinda makes a strange feeling inside me. I've never been jealous of another girl and stuff like that, but it's like super unknown for me and it even shocks me. #needhelp