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My girlfriend and i will have our first month this month but we've been dating for 6 months and she had a past and i don't, i mean it's normal. She is my first time, kiss, hug, naughty, and even hold hands. She's the best girlfriend ever, she's my greatest love, she loves me so much and i do the same thing. But it's bothering me because in her past, they are 1 year and 8 months and she told me that the 5 months of it is happy and the rest is hell. I believe her, what's hurting me is that they have sexual intimacy. Her first and it's killing me, I'm always overthinking and it always question my sanity. We're now ldr, and it's hurting me more after realizing they have more time together than we are. I'm eager to marry her and she's eager to say yes, we will wait for four years and then we will get married but it's just making me question my sanity, Please advice me what to do, i appreciate you all.