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I miss my brother so much,we grew up tg for 10 yrs and after our mom left my dad,he left. They all did. My mom,all of my big brothers,they disappeared and I didn't hear from any of them till last year,I moved in with my mom and my older brother,the other 2 living w their grandma.Now he's locked up and I feel so guilty. I miss watching Dexter with him while eating his fav food,I miss watching anime one his bed while he played COD and Rainbow,I miss cooking for him after school while our mom was at work bc he was in the middle of a round,I miss playing with him,we never really fought,I couldnt bring myself to ever get mad at him or any of my older brothers.I miss coming home to him from school and telling him about my day,I miss his rude jokes. I cried when he just left,my mom says he woulda ran away sooner (has a history of running away) but he stayed bc of me,and I feel like if I hung out with him more he wouldn't be in prison right now. I wish I could give them all better lives,none of them deserved the cards they were given. But I didn't deserve to be abandoned for a 3rd time.