I dont know what to feel [Part 1]

So I had a classmate who I could say had a history with but not really. When I was in 10th grade, I had a crush on him, I could draw him, or look at him from afar, yeah, the typical girl in love kind of thing. Honestly, during that time, I was focused on him, from ways to get us to talk, or ways to make him laugh and like me or at least notice me. He was quite popular, especially since he was an athlete and had a good physique (he was 2 years older than the other 10th graders because he was late to go in elementry school). He was friendly, never fought or got angry by shouting or yelling like other guys. Many other girls were in love with him, no surprises. First of all, there's nothing too wow, it's just that he likes to flirt sometimes? or give hints? I don't know, maybe it's just my brain that makes these memories look beautiful lol. There's the time he gave me fruit in the middle of class without warning, or when I painted his hand (he asked) and he rubbed his hand a bit to mine, or when we chased each other in the kitchen together when we got a cooking assignment? When he fanned me while I was editing the assignment? I don't know.. Maybe it's just me who exaggerates.