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I'm a fat and ugly cow. I don't deserve love and maybe everything I've done is for attention. Maybe I will die alone. No matter what I do, or wear I will still look fucking disgusting. I've tried forcing myself to wear makeup... I hate it. I hate how it feels on my skin, I'm trying to be girly so maybe someone will be interested but no matter what I do, it's not good enough. I'm not fucking good enough. I'm not skinny enough or tall enough. I'm just short and fat. I'm too weird, I'm too much, I'm a problem. I try to be funny so I can pretend I'm okay but it only does so much.