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Went to the clinic for a medical check up bcs I was too stressed being called by my teachers bcs I always sleep in class... No diagnosed were confirmed for the reason and all was seemly 'good' until the doctor asked, if I have problems in school or life, in general. That's where it all started with my depression being diagnosed. I regret saying anything to the doctors. I was on meds, which I'm always inconsistent and every few months of check up to ask my condition. This is the main problem, I've never opened up, especially that much. Slowly, I keep lying I was getting okay when I was almost relapsed everytime. And finally, I was 'okay' and the doctor(all different doctors from each checkups) told me I was probably never the depress. And yeah, I'm still here with negative thoughts. Idk I just need to get this off my chest.