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So I think I like my best friend for a long time now since we were kids, I never said it to her tho since I don't want to ruin the friendship and I'm fine with just staying with her. I supported her through the years with her love life, problems, and basically anything that she need, ever since we're kids we've made a promise that if we're both single at a certain age then we'll just stay together just the 2 of us, it made me happy of course. Whenever she ask me if there's someone I like I always said that I'm not interested in any relationship but deep down I'm really just waiting for that certain age even if chances are low. To be fair she's a very gorgeous girl so pretty and kind basically everyone's dream girl so deep in my mind I knew our promises will never be real but I still held to that hope. Fast forward today, this breaks my heart since I think she's forgotten our promise, she told me that she made that same promise to a boy but she lowered the age so that means if her and that boy gets to that age then the 2 of them will be together, I don't even remember what I said to her but I just smiled and pretend to be happy for her. I always knew I never have the chance we're both girls btw