I dont see a future for myself.

No matter what I do or achieve, I feel like it isnt enough to axtually have a future that i'll be in. With the economy we live in right now, the issuse I have with myself that I know I need to fix but have a hard time to, its hard to find anything that I should be excited about. Back then, I didnt think i'd make it past 13. But here we are now at 15, 2 years away from having to choose aa college and decide what course I take for a job im not sure i'll want. Nowadays, when people ask what im gonna choose, I say psychology butif im honest ive always had passion for performing arts, particularlynsinging and acting but thats not an option, my family wouldnt like that and theres also a reason the plhrase "starving artists" exists. I dunno, I just really cant see myself achieving my dreams or anything. All of the things I tell people im gonna do in the future feels like im just saying it and its just never gonna happen and trust me, ive tried to stay positive and according to all of my friends im the person filled with the most passion but I dont see that..