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I feel like I told everyone that I'm depressed and suicidal but legit no one caresss. Yeah thats it. I'm not suicidal in the sense that I would do it, I'm too much of a pussy about pain to go through with that. I've been depressed for like, 5-7 years now. I'm really forgetful. I feel so whiny typing this out like "give me attention!!!" But I'm really not the type who wants a bunch of attention. Just for someone to care. I have exactly 1 online friend and I wont make it his problem, because what a mood breakerrrr. I just met him like, 2 or so months or so anyways. I haven't had an ACTUAL irl friend since I was in 3rd grade. Btw. People hate me and I don't know why I haven't been genuinely happy with my life for so long and I just want it to end. I don't want to see the future because I'm not cut out for it.