Idk..

Hi, how are you? I want to say something I’ve been thinking about for a long time: I truly want to be loved, and I want to love someone else. I’ve put so much effort into the relationships I’ve had, but they always end up leaving me, even when I beg them not to. I used to think I just didn’t have much luck in love because, being honest, if I walk into any room, I know I'll never be the most attractive, smart, or charismatic person there. I have trouble opening up to others. I’ve been searching for so long and have been hurt so many times that I can’t fully trust another person anymore. Just when I feel like I’m letting my guard down, I realize I can’t bring myself to love them, because I start seeing signs that show me they will leave too. Despite that, I know that when I do manage to open up, I can give my absolute best. Unfortunately, whenever I was lucky enough to have someone by my side, that person walked away... and then it happened again, and again. Could it be that I’m the problem? I just want to know what I’m missing to be a good choice for someone, to truly be loved.