unhealthy fantasies

hello, everyone ... i'll try to make this post as short and straight-to-the-point as possible lately (or maybe for a while now), i've been fantasizing about being hurt, exploited, among other things. i suspect this is because i crave attention/care from others, but it's still worrying ... it's gotten to the point where i can't look at others' suffering without fantasizing about it being me who was going through that instead. there's a clear emphasis on me being the 'victim', but i do also quite like the idea of being coddled ? pitied ? post-exploitation. of course, these are all in my head ... i feel like if any "chance" of this were to happen in real life, i'd be scared as shit ;; i'm just wondering if there's really any way to stop thinking this way ? thanks for reading :-) [i'd like to go see a psychologist or something, perhaps ... just don't think i really want to say anything about this to my parents though T_T]