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My boyfriend told me that if I continue to smoke and drink and cut even once he will break up with me. I love him sososooooo much. But i have lied about me not doing those things. I had 4 shots last night and a crazy cutting session about 6 days ago. I don't know if I should tell him and let him break up with me or if I should continue keeping this a secret. I dont want to lose him.