a member

I've chose to unfriend and block some of my friends this year, but not entirely all of them. I recently saw them all together and I'm feeling something like envy and anger? i really don't know. I feel like I never belonged, or I was never their friend. They're really special to me before, and I really took a long time before deciding to deattach with them, because they were making me feel like I'm nothing. I'm no one. It breaks my heart to see them all happy without me, even the person that I consider my ride or die didn't even ask me why I'd leave the group chat or what. I feel unworthy of being someone's friend, I wanna be someone's someone.