I had to threaten my father to😔 ....

If it wasn't for this anaonimisy I would post this .Guys am currently struggling am not asking for any help cause am not used to , am used to loving myself and staying by myself , this year so far I've been building on myself , I am very talented at drawing , when I was young I wanted to become a scientist, 😭 boy was I proven wrong , I was incapable because it's too expensive in our country to even educate in that sector , someone would have to be lucky to get sponsored . So dreams died new ones came and since I was good at drawing I ventured into animation, 2d. Specifically I ventured there cause I am also good at story telling and creating my own universe , this was a result of me being alone as a child and making my own physical tiny characters , sitting alone somewhere no one would realise me and playing for hours before snapping back and realising am in the real world . My parents would laugh whenever they saw me make my tiny characters almost like action figures to me , usually got lost in my mind when I started playing with them. Now growing up insecuries about if I even have anyone I could trust in my family that could support me to succeed were real. I was like introverted to people who I am not used to , I guess you could say omniverted. So now it's been months this year studying 2d animation while at college with the hope that once am done college I can be already making content for social media to atleast earn out of it , I genuinely believe I can be wealthy out of it , but the loneliness is too much , painful even ...........I wish I had a community depending on my content and enjoying it that's my dream ,.but currently I am using android to animate and , am Soo close to finish college, am scared like a little boy cause I know nobody has my back , I literally had to force my father to take me to college by threatening to go to police that's when he decided to take me to school college . It's hecktic , I can feel him excited for..