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I love my current boyfriend but this relationship has been so different from my first love. My first love, we will call him P. P has horrible avoidant attachment and we were on and off for seven/eight months but our bond was so deep and I still feel so connected to him. He was my first body and a lot of my other firsts as well. I have so many fun and happy memories with him but there was also a lot of bad but for some reason it is completely discarded in my mind. My current boyfriend, we will call him D, has extreme anxious attachment to me. Which I was to P. And now I understand why P acted the way he did in a way, and I wonder if it would be different if we tried again. It drives me crazy because its been over a year since me and P broke up and sometimes im still stuck on him and I have a boyfriend currently which makes me feel extremely guilty. And I have tried breaking up with D because it doesnt feel the "same" but I dont know if anything will ever feel the same it did with P. Anyone have any advice...or in similar situations?