I fall in love with boy and I might be gay

So I started noticing that I feels warm when he talk to me in call, like video call in discord. And in my country, liking the same gender is not normal and they said that I am crazy. I just can't tell any of my friends, parents or people around me started to hate me cuz I'm a boy who like another boy. It's hard to tell anyone what who I'm truly is without getting called soft or little boy(I'm the tallest member in my family btw)