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Dammit, idk even know why i made this post. Maybe im being delusional, right? Well whatever. So I have super awesome friend and we've know each other for years. We were classmates back then, got separate schools, and became classmates again after she transferred to our school. Our closeness never change ig, we still laughed like idiot like we used to, make some hella random jokes only we can understand, and being each other side by side. She became part of my life ever since. The problem is i suddenly realized something earlier, that i think im starting to like her. Call me crazy or overacting but damn i think i swallow a bunch of butterflies and now they're all tingly in my stomach. Weird but thats what i felt. Actually everytime she lend me a hand without me asking for it, i really felt it. I felt a warmth inside my fuckass heart but i just shrugged it off saying to myself its nothing. But right now idk anymore, i shouldn't like her cuz damn if she knew we'll just laugh or shit. Can't even imagine if we dated, we'll probably pushing and teasing each other as if the part that i liked her didn't exist. But seriously, idk anymore, im going crazy cuz now i dont think i can just shrugged this shitty feels for her now. Maybe i should disregard my feelings? Yeah, I'd rather do that than lose our friendship.