I'm fcking sobbing rn

Hi I'm a grade 10 student and I'm fcking hate this I hate school and the dcking the pressure its giving me, idk idk anymore, Its just been 2-3 months since school started and I'm already drained, overwhelmed, tired of everything, I'm juggling 12 subjects in total, 6am - 5:30 pm everysingle week, fcking stacks of activities, notes, quizes and projects, ducking exams every 3-4 weeks, I'm actually sick of it. And ykw I'm fcking exhausted, I'm struggling so bad, I'm so disgusted of myself, of how I look, ever since school started I became very underweight, I'm became very very dkinny, I keep losing my appetite and haven't gotten to eat a proper meal (I always skip meals), my face is full of acne, my sleep schedule is fcked up because of the overwhelming amount of activities, I'm always fcking irritated, I feel like I'm always out of focus sll the time. I feel so distant to my family, I feel like I haven't spend time with them for so long, I actually spend more time in my study table. Now my dad came home from abroad, I felt like I haven't spent time with him enough, now since we have this short like 1 week break from school, my parents are planning that we visit my grandparents, my aunts and uncles, my cousins and are planning to stay there but guess what I had to tell them I couldn't come becus I have to finish all my projects, now I'm fcking sobbing, idk how long ive been crying becuse I genuinely just wanna spend time with family, I wanna take care of myself properly again, I just wanna stop worrying about chasing deadlines in the back of my head. and ik my problems are so small and someone had it worst than me, ik what's on your mind "why won't you tell your parents?" "Then just stop studying" "Grades doesn't define who you are" But you won't understand. I can't tell this to my parents, I don't want them to worry about me.. But I just wanna vent, I just want someone to listen, you don't have to give me advice or comment or react