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I was in a break up, right? I was feeling 50/50 I'm doing fine but then I am not. I can't seem to cry, even if I try to because I know I need that, I just couldn't. But I know that I'm sad, that I feel heavy. But then again, I don't, yet my heart feels like its been hurting lately. It's not that very painful type of way, but you can feel it tightening then loosening, it doesn't hurt but enough for me to notice. Idk what's going on, I honestly don't know what to do and I can't tell this to anyone close to me because I don't want them to freak out. But last night was the worse one, I was just walking around the house when suddenly I felt that same pain again, but this time it is much more tight than the last, still doesn't hurt so much but enough that I felt it. Please tell me this will be gone in no time because I can't risk getting sick right now.