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When I was 17, I had a boyfriend who was 19. I was a virgin and had no experience in any of those cause I grew from a strictly conservative (yet hypocritical) household (grandparents). But I got free from that and got to be with my mother (she worked abroad). When I and my bf only started dating he kissed me with tongue. I jolted from shock cause I wasn't expecting any of that, I just sat there frozen. Then he said "It's what boyfriends and girlfriends do" I just froze as he continued, until it came to "that" part. It made feel blank idk... I went home after that afternoon... During our first month, I don't know but somehow I kept dating him even if I know something felt uneasy. Then my period came wasn't coming. I panicked and everything, I'm a high achiever- I said to myself so much before... I can't sleep, eat, or do anything properly before... And when I told that to my bf, he just went cold, almost like ghosting me... My mother was getting frustrated at me cause she noticed that my period isn't starting. She threatened to stop my academics, to cut me off her life, to just stop everything. During that, my bf broke up with me. Days passed, I got my period...