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, I just wanted to ask how can I stop loving my best friend of 7years so I can focus on my life, the love is sexual but eey every time he does something bad to me or leaves me on read I try to leave and not comeback as I have done to my other friends but him it's different I keep going back to him , I'm tired of it now we have been friends for so long I sometimes think we are brothers. we will fight still I go even if he is jealous of me I go back and make excuses for his behaviors. Should I leave and block him or should I have atalk with him? ( I know It sounds like a toxic love and I get why but I don't know 😭😞 it's like I'm under a spell or something) Maybe it's due to the sexual nature and tension of the friendship.❤️