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I miss my ex M. It was our first rs, I liked him first. I think he was moving on from his first crush I didn't know about it when I had a crush on him. So then we started talking then after a month of talking he confessed I said yes. I was stupid there and know nothing about rs I never had a crush before that lasted a week. After a month of being together there was a school Christmas event, he made it kinda obvious he was looking at his ex crush and that made me jealous, then the next day he was talking to her and that made me more jealous cause she's exactly his type and I'm not his type quite the opposite ngl. After that school break I tried to talked to him but it was kinda off idk maybe I was delusional bc he was with his extended fam said he didn't have much Wi-Fi but like I see his repost so I kinda distant myself, not much just busy, so after the winter break I asked him if he was going to school bc not much people are going he said no and I didn't go, but then I heard from my friend he did went to school, the worst part is that since students where like not much so they merged classrooms, he was with his ex crush, so then I got insecure cause what if he still likes his ex crush. A few later the situation got worse we were barely talking I tried talking to him in private but he seemed distant and was deflecting my requests to talk so we can solve the problem until I got annoyed and broke up with him. So likeeee it's been 2yrs now 😬 we been off and on with mix signals of wanting each other back but it's just him saying he wants us to be back but when I show the same feelings he deflects. In the past months he has some crushes but then still go back saying why no one loves him but like I'm here I did told him I would wait for him (mb😬). But like I keep promise so. Yh I think I just miss him bc of what we could be tbh. Still want it tho.