Rant

I really just want to jot this down for my next therapy session but im very welcome to others opinions. I'm quite upset right now mainly because of my mother. I live with both my mother and father(though they are not truly together) and they are constantly arguing about financial issues. I'm not extremely poor but we pretty much only have money for bills. I was getting picked up from school and my mother- as usual- is very upset and stressed. It's also hot out so i know she doesn't want to be or to get me, especially because my school has bad traffic 24/7. She's doing nothing but complaining about life and praying out loud about how me and my younger sibling(8) are so much and she is stressed to figure out what we're going to eat next week. I get it. Living is so expensive- being a parent must be horrible and the financial struggles living in the usa is not what she signed up for. But i really miss when she would pick me up and ask me about my day and whatnot. Even being asked what i want for dinner so she can make it. I guess in truly more frustrated with our living situation than her in general, but i wish she would realise how her actions are impacting me as a teen in society. I've told her that her outward complaints aren't good for anyone. Not to mention the fact that I am currently trying to get past mental struggles and su¡c¡dal ideation or how my sister is still young and developing. I dunno I just miss how she used to seem to be as a younger kid. I know it's been hard but still. She won't even hug me when I need it most times. I'm still her kid, but she says i should be better because ill be in adult in a few years. Sorry for any grammar/spelling issues...