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Okay so uh, this is my first diary entry. all I can say is that I'm grade 7 (I know it's young) and the name I'll go by is yan and I'll call my crush, uhm. O. Basics. so the vibe Between me and O is really confusing, I feel like I have crushback but then I overthink and feel like he hates me. O has a really strict mom and is study first so he rarely has crushes. I'm just gonna tell you about one moment I got kilig, so uh yesterday I was absent from school and around 1:30pm he suddenly texted me "👋" and I immediately got kilig kay usually I would text him first and just to act nonchalant and cool I sent "?" But he didn't reply back🥲 then around 2:30pm he suddenly texted me again "Absent ka?" And I immediately texted back of course, and we chatted for a while, not for that long before ma'am came to his room, then he suddenly texted me again "(my name)" Dayon of course I replid with "Yes?" Dayon he said "Nganong nonchalant ka Kong makita ko nimo?" Which translates to "why do you act nonchalant every time I see you" and I didn't know what to say, cause the reason i acted nonchalant was because I was jealous and was in my "He doesn't like me back" phase so I sent "ha?" Then he deleted his message and said "wala" (means nothing in bisaya) which made me so confused Like is that good or bad, I keep rereading our convo trying to figure out if the convo was good or bad or what if the text he deleted meant he thought I was a weirdo😭😭 Girls help Mee😭😭