Life update

So im eleven and im Pan, and my bestfriend knows, but only her. And I dont know how to tell my mom. But also, I identify as she/they which makes me more scared to tell her because she says God makes us female or male and we shouldn't go against God, which i do believe in God, but at the same time, i dont know if im a true catholic cuz I believe alot of stuff that is technically against catholic beliefs. Anyways, that's just a little life update. Thanks for reading, I hope you have a good day/night.