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I've had three children. My oldest is 28, My middle is 25, and my youngest is 20. When my first child was born he was colic and I had severe postpartum depression due to being 16 years old and alone my mother had gone to Maui and my father had disowned me because I wouldn't get an abortion. Due to medical issues I ended up in ICU after I had my son so we did not get that initial mother and child skin to skin contact or that first breastfeeding connection that you're supposed to have and with me being all alone and so young I didn't know what the hell I was doing and when I reached out for help the person I reached out to attempted to steal my child from me. She lied about me in court said that I was abusing my child which was absolutely Preposterous I never would have hurt him ever it took 6 months of random drug tests and all kinds of other court dates and whatnot to get him back and by the time I did get him back he still didn't know who I was really and we couldn't connect like we should have so I gave him up for adoption and gave him to my cousins who wanted him when I was pregnant with him. And honestly I believe that that was the best decision I could have ever made because he had a wonderful life probably the best decision I made as a mother. Fast forward 3 years and I have my second child and everything was great 5 years later had my third and everything was absolutely wonderful my daughter was the the epitome of everything I've ever wanted. I used to tell my daughter" greatest moment of my life was when my sister said oh my God it's a girl" when My daughter was 11 Her father and I had gotten into drugs And decided that we shouldn't be together anymore I left And proceeded to spend the next year and a half living in my car And I left my children A 16 year old son and 11 year old daughter with their father Because I didn't want to pull them out of school I didn't know where I was going to be And they had a stable home with him Little did I know He would destroy the relationship between my children and me simply because of being rejected by me. He spent the next 5 years telling my children everything that children should never know about a parent he told them horrible things about me my children hated me for five long years and by the time my kids started to figure it out he lost them CPS had come and he managed to convince them that I was the problem but my kids knew better but at 13 my daughter came out as transgender and I believe it was very much in part to how she saw how women are treated by her father and by her brother who have no respect for women whatsoever and talk down about women all the time. If I'd been the same position I probably would have also gone that direction but honestly because of the extreme neglect that my daughter experienced in the 5 years that I was gone I had a lot to do with it she just she needed attention that she was not receiving and when she came out as transgender it gave her the attention that she wanted. At 16 my daughter finally came back to me and live with me at my sisters she attempted suicide once by taking pills at school and luckily it didn't work thank God and I felt so guilty but I didn't know what to do I ran into some problems when I lost my job so I couldn't pay rent and so I had my daughter move in with my mom where she has been ever since and is now full on transgender she changed her name she's planning on getting her boobs cut off tried to get a hysterectomy but it's because she broke her arm the doctor wouldn't do it and I just want to know who the hell this psychopath doctor is because I want his license taken away you can't give a hysterectomy to a perfectly healthy 20 year old who's had no children that is illegal in this state I'm not an asshole. The kids who've been being told these things should know You cannot change your biology, you are who you are born as and u need to love who u are not change who u are with surgery or hormones. To be continued..