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I haven't felt happy truly happy and fulfilled since i was fourteen , i just feel like every time I'm trying and i finally reach a point where I'm close to something good close to truly feeling something else then just okay again everything falls apart even people just pull away after being nice after we get along great , it makes me feel horrible like a curse and a burden i hide my pain , my emotions i do my best for everyone , i give my best yet i always loose i can't take it anymore. I'm trying not to loose hope but seven years of this is too much for me to bear....i just can't....there is no-one i can even turn to...... I just want something good to finally happen to me.