birthdays....

I hate my birthdays so much.... maybe it's because i tired to kms a day before my birthday a few years back and it stuck with me .... but maybe it's also because i hate attention and people asking me what i want or what do i want to do ....it literally takes me a year to plan my birthday and on the day nothing goes right or maybe it's because my family is so pushy but i don't know...... i just know that i cry on my birthday every year without fail... and my birthday is also in few days so yay.... my plans are already messing up... i was supposed to go ice skating with my sister today because she works on me bday but she said she doesn't have the money right now (it's 10 dollars) to skate i told her i can pay and now she doesn't want to go .... i planned this last week ... nothing goes the way i plan ever....lmk if yall want an update on my birthday ....