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I don't know why I go to bed very late (close to 5 a.m.) and I never wake up until 3 p.m. on top of the depression from that but I lied to my parents and I've been called very mean things from them made my depression worse. I'm thinking of committing but I don't know what to do l, I'm scared of dying and I'm scared of telling them what's going on because they always think that I'm seeking attention and to be honest I'm not and it feels like they don't care about my feelings because I silent cry in front of them, they don't think of what's wrong with me. Plus I don't eat as much and I just want these feelings to be known but... Like I said before, they are going to say I'm seeking attention so that's why I don't speak to anyone about my feelings and my depression... Right now I'm crying...