I wear a lot of masks

It's been like this for a long time. I hide what I feel and the crushing pain I have. Most people assume that I am healthy and strong. That's a mask. It's an illusion that I preform so that humans don't see weakness in me that they can exploit. The problem is that humans are predators and most are cowards who leave me alone in my pain but then others see me as a great mythical beast and they want to ruin me and display my corpse somewhere. Even when I was a boy I remember they bragged that they made me scream in pain when my skin was ripped off of my arm. They don't know me and they don't care to know me. I see beautiful and horrible things in this world but in the dark and light I walk alone. People just don't walk with me. They don't respect me, and they don't have the ability to walk where I go. So when I have to interact with humans I wear a metphorical mask to hide who I really am. It's part of the metaphorical armor I wear but they still see that I am not like them. The masks work temporarily but they tend ro find out that I don't glorify stupidity. "well I ain't got no degree like you but" I also don't have a degree in metaphysics yet I have studied them to the point where I am competent. I only needed to study but the ignorant are too pathetic and lazy to learn. Stupidity has nothing to do with it. Stupid people can actually be very talented and knowledgeable but they, like the intelligent people, must work to understand. I am competent. I have worked hard to understand. I seem foreign everywhere I go and because I am correct I am offensive to those who lie and attempt to control others with the lies and false illusions that they use. I understand now that I am alone and I want a girl friend. I want a group of friends too. I used to have to have that too but the modern world has become polluted with trash that people have glorified and absorbed. I don't want to be welcomed into a trash heaps even though I have to move though them.