So lonely but ppl pmo and give me headaches

tryna reach out to people bc I've been feeling lonely. but every one of them, no matter what personality they have, i still get weirdly irritated by their presence. I love people, feeling like this is so damn exhuasting. I really try to suppress it, i have met sweet people but i just can't turn it off, no matter how hard i try to act like its not bothering me, I feel so psychologically tired after and stop socializing for a few days. It's very frustrating. I'm starting to think I'm really better off alone. I have been lonely all throughout my life anyways. I've also been in a lot of LDRs and the distance didn't really affect me, so ig i just have to get used to it. I noticed how better i feel when i spend time all by myself. It's just kind of boring and depressing after quite a while. Ugh but to have ppl to hang out w and care for you sounds really nice.. also a gf