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I just want to vent but i have no one to talk to. I don't go to school, i don't work, i don't leave the house, i don't talk to anyone. I don't talk to my mother, i don't talk to my dad, i have very little friends and when i text them they just don't answer, is just me texting the wall. I can't talk to people anymore, i don't know how to aproach them. Not IRL, i never was able to talk to people IRL, just online. I have no money i can't see my psychologist and psychiatrist, i can't buy my meds for the depression and anxiety, i can't go to the doctor for my scoliosis and i can't sleep at night for how much my back hurts and because of the insomnia. I live for free in a small apartament because someone feel sorry for me and let me just stay here. I don't enjoy the games i used to enjoy, i don't feel happy reading anymore, i can't distract myself anymore. I just lay in my bed all day watching my phone, crying and gooning and having panics attack where i hurt myself even if i don't want to. My life is lame and i don't even have anyone to tell how fucking bad it is.