I've had enough, I'm tired (TRIGGER WARNING)

I have gone through so much. Sexual assults, harassment, raped, lack of attention from parent, father died at 2, brother died at 9, unstable mom, financial burden (me), fake friends, immature guys, no support, Independence, bullied, tolerating bad people in general, and more. Did it all by myself and no one cares. No one seems to appreciate me and talk to me or ask how I am from any person that I care about. Nobody. I am tired of secretly crying myself to sleep and putting on a strong face.