My anxiety and thoughts I need to write down

So school starts in 2 days. Idk anyone there but the teachers I met so far seem nice, especially my art and science teachers. Anyway I'm anxious most of the time, just talking to other people my age seems too much. I dont know how to talk without being annoying or talking too much. I dont know If I even want to make any new friends. Plus with me being hypersexual and all and hating myself for it sucks too. I miss all my friends back home. I'll just keep to myself for now, but I overthink this way too much, but its good right? Now I know all the possible outcomes if I talk to someone. Oh well, I dont have a choice. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. My dad makes fun of my anxiety. "Why cant you sit still?" The answer is, I dont know. I just cant.