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Before that, I've (17) been dating my ex (16) for about a year and four months. We were a LDR. They were my second partner, but I liked (and honestly still do) referring to them as my first among many other things for.. many reasons. Anyways the main point. We broke up at June 5th, and I told them that we could be friends again someday. They messaged me three days after. But I ghosted them and we haven't made any attempt to contact each other since. I miss them, somehow. Even though all my romantic love for them had long gone, I miss them. They're still a good friend after all, I just can't bring myself to face them yet. Everytime I see them, I feel like I'm fuming and terrified and grieving all at once. I don't regret breaking up, I just... I dunno. But there's that. I probably need advice more than anything... this is baby's first serious breakup after all. Thanks