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I feel a little bit down and I don't want to burden anyone so I've come here. I've been in online school for about 2 and a half years now after having to leave my in-person school due to financial reasons. It was alright at first since I got a break from having to hear people screaming before 7:30 in the morning cost Things kind of started spiraling though when I couldn't hangout with my friends or go anywhere for that matter. I've been stuck in this loop of waking up, going to my desk for 9 hrs then going back to bed. I miss being around people. I miss hugging and holding onto my friends. I miss talking to them in person and going on little walks around the school. I've missed out on my whole teenage experience. I'm so lonely but don't feel like I deserve to since I still have my family. It really doesn't help that I'm the only one in my friend group that lives very far from everyone else and cannot attend the hangouts because of the picked locations that would cost too much. I just want my normalcy back.