The loneliness?

I wished I had friends Okay I have friend but not actual friends. They would never choose me over someone else. I cant go to them if im feeling sad or if its getting bad agian. They all have someone they would rather be with or talk too. They barely answer my texts or calls and if they do it sounds forced like an obligation. Like they would rather be doing literally anything else. When we do hang out which we rarely do i feel like they dont want to be there and are only there for my supply/what i can give them yk. I just dont know what to do it feel so alone.