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I hallucinate and have been since I was around 5 years old, and the thing they're labeling it as is wrong. When I talk to my psychiatrist about she avoids the topic which just scares me more, and for my future. I have anger issues and HI and SI. When I started hallucinating I was a happy kid and overtime I became depressed because of them. They tell me how fat and ugly I am, to hurt myself or others. I don't want to, I don't want this. I'm going fucking crazy. They've put me on meds for it that never worked and I'm just so scared. Am I gonna end up in a residential? Like I don't know anymore, it feels like Im gonna lose my life before I even got to actually start it.